it only gets harder the more that you know,,
& Monday, January 16, 2006
this could very well be my last entry for my blog
because i realise most of the things i posted makes no sense to ppl
its only relevent to me u see
so why would i wan to have a blog written with stuffs tts beyond understanding from ppl
adding on to tt, it only brings me trouble
nothing but trouble
so... as a concluding entry. i shall write as much as i can. i'd finally realise its really not up to us to decide who to love and who not to.(i noe it sounds cliche) despite desperately holding on to a particular person, trying to revive the old feelings, things will nv work out. simply because ppl change without knowing it themselves. a good example is me. i've been stupid to acutally believe tt somedae somehow things will work out with my ex instead of looking ahead of me and e guys out there. but im glad to wake up from my stupid lil' hope now. i couldnt be more dumb.
i'd nv noe love can weave its way around my heart until now.(but i could be wrong).its funny how much it can survive on its own despite my persistent efforts to diminish, ignore and be cynical abt it. instead of fighting it, my walls around my heart is starting to melt a lil' by lil', day by day. tho sometimes i really wish i could freeze it so i won be able to feel hurt (when it comes some day).
right now im like sitting on top of a cliff with a safety belt fastened around my waist looking at how "love" is working out by itself. its effortless i must sae. perharps one day i'll finally unfastened e belt and jump into it. one day..
( 11:17 PM )