im in a state of confusion right now
like i'd said, i don understand wads the thing thats making jy so happy, so blessed
and jace so weary and tired
its all about feelings of love, isnt it
in the past i would nv allow myself to sink in it
the exception of R.T tt is
but now maybe.. jus maybe i wanna have a taste of it all over again
even if it means getting all confused and hesitant

bUT. their so many things to deal in a relationship
things to do, things SHouLd be done, things MUSt be done
'or am i right to do this',' should i do this', 'am i going overboard'
all these questions drain ppl and suck up all their energy
which can be put to better use

but 'sPeCIaL fREn' (inside joke) once said to me tt im not looking at he himself anymore
coz my vision is blurred by all the past experiences and the skeptical way of looking at guys
so much so that i cant see wads in him

hmm... true.